New Year, New... Me?
Well, the year started off with a bang. I went to the gym to meet my trainer for the first time, we visited a new church on the first Sunday of the year, & we've been working really hard on budgeting & on working with Wyatt on his behavior. All was going well until I hurt my back & I was stuck on pause for a while. I'm starting to feel better so hopefully things will start to get back to something resembling normal.
I've been focusing a lot on working through my shopping issues, although right now we don't really have to the money to pay the therapist so I'm trying to deal with this on my own. I still haven't told anyone in the family about it & Aaron, bless his heart, just doesn't fully get it. I figure it's still better to keep it to myself for right now. I've been reading The Soft Addiction Solution which pretty much presents 2 options- superficial ways to fill a void & real ways to fill a void- & guides you in how to choose the real ways to fill voids in your life. Okay, I'm only on chapter 4 so my explanation may be a little off, but it is a good book. I've been trying to focus on the end & not the means, which helps with the anxiety & stress that causes the shopping in the 1st place. If the house is clean, the kids are fed, & we're happy, then who cares how we got there. I don't have to be cleaning all of my waking hours or make sure that every surface is wiped down every 20 minutes. It's really allowed me to find some new ways to reach the goal at hand without sacrificing my sanity. Small things really, but they make a huge difference. We put a small pink tote & blue tote in the living room & when I come across something that goes is the kids' rooms I drop it in the appropriate tote. When the tote gets full, we empty it. It keep the main part of the house less messy & I'm not stepping on or over toys all day long. It seems so simple but it makes a huge difference in my day. The kids know which tote is theirs because they are different colors & they can put their own toys in the proper place. I've just had to stop expecting so much of myself. God gives us all talents & traits & just because 1 person is good at organization & cleaning doesn't mean we all should be.
So, that's it for today. I've got to go put Wyatt on a treadmill or something so he can burn some energy before he drives me crazy.
